Monday, 15 November 1999 1:59am (tuesday morning)
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t's been a few days since I've updated this page. But I'm doing it now. These past two weeks have been a real low for me in a way. I think I am on a 9 month emotional cycle. It seems like about once every 9 months or so, I go through a phase where I get really depressed. You know, like down on myself for being such a failure and all that stuff. It lasts anywhere from a couple of weeks to a couple of months. It seems to come a little bit earlier every year, so that's why I estimate it's 9 months. So yeah. If you run into me and I don't sound happy it's because I've just been constantly thinking about all the missed opportunities and failures of my recent and not-so-recent past, and about all of my shortcomings.
Well enough about that. Here's some excitement. Last night the power went out. An underground line broke. This was around 11:30pm. Fortunately, I had my mini-maglite within easy reach. So after I got over the disappointment of losing all the data I had been working on in Flash (about 2 seconds), I already had it turned on in my hands.
Since the power was off, there wasn't really anything to do at home. So I went down the street to Mimi's place since Lawrence was there too. They didn't have any flashlights or anything. Everyone was huddled in Mimi's room because she had the one candle in the whole house. Then I went to Ralph's to use their free internet terminals. Then I went to Friday's to have a beer. Then it was closing time. So I went back home. There was an army of SDG&E trucks running around. It was pretty crazy. Some people got their power back. Not me though. So I drove to my office. Played on the computer there for a while. Finally I came back home around 3am. Still no power for me, but probably half of the affected people got their power back.
I brushed my teeth in the dark with my flashlight and went to sleep. When i woke up around 8:30, there was still no power. Oh well. I got ready for school. I took a shower in the dark cuz there is no window in my bathroom. Right as I was about to leave for school around 9:30, the power came back. Yay.
So like uh yeah, that was the excitement. Then I went to school. Came back. Redid the flash work that I lost in the outtage last night. I went out with my digital camera and took pictures of the leaves turning color around the corner from my house. It's not that impressive. But these are probably the only leaves that turn color in all of San Diego. Anyway, I didn't move to San Diego to see leaves change color. I came here to stay away from the places that have snow (which is mostly the same places where the leaves change color).

Earlier this morning there were SDG&E trucks on this street laying new cable

Sometimes, I do very foolish things when I'm in this part of my 9 month cycle. Often times, in fact. These foolish things lead to regret. Sometimes this regret only adds to the rest of everything else. Regret is dumb. But I carry a lot of it around. Always afraid to miss opportunities, yet always afraid to take risks. That combination leads to regret of course.

Tuesday, 16 November 1999 1:59am (wednesday morning)
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oday I investigated some possible new skate spots that me and Lawrence discovered this past weekend. They are both schools, both locked up. One of them looked really cool but it was practically a fortress and impossible to get inside. I went back this evening to see if the gates would be open. I went around 5. They were open. But there were a lot of people around. And it seemed even cooler on the inside than it did looking in. I decided to come back later to see if the gates would still be open later. I went with Mimi to check it out. All locked up. Oh well.
It rained today. Well not really rained. More like drizzle. But it drizzled for most of the day and the night. It's pretty clear outside now though. A couple of months ago, Henry got a kitten from the pound. I took a picture of it while it was sitting on top of my monitor.

Hmm. I didn't really do anything else today that I can think of. Been pretty lazy these days. I guess I should end this thing right now anyway since I gotta go to class tomorrow.

Thursday, 18 November 1999 1:20am (friday morning)
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ast night (Wednesday) was a long night. Some time around 6 or so, I went down to Daily Bread magazine, downtown. I wanted to get some Jethro pants from Angie. I did. They are good. They are nice. They are very functional and durable with double layered fabric on the knees and the ass so that they don't rip when you fall.
I ended up staying there a while, watching some video that this guy sent in to the magazine to be reviewed. Then I went to Burger King with Zeb and Jan (who just moved from Texas). Then we went to my place and played some Tony Hawk for a while. Then we went out skating, probably around midnight. We drove around Mission Valley just looking for spots. We didn't find much.
Then we found this little metal curb. We sessioned there for a while. We played horse. Then we got hungry and left. We were sort of disappointed that we didn't find anything good. We went to Taco Bell (around 2am). What do you know, there are these really nice ledges to skate right behind Taco Bell. Extremely well lit, and absolutely no security. We stayed there a long while. Then I took them home. I got home around 4am.
Today not a whole lot happened. I woke up and I ate. I worked on an update for Sea-Quints Online. I made dinner at home for once. And that has been the extent of the excitement of my night.
Man. My neck is soo stiff. Kind of a lot of things going on right now that I won't go into until they either end up happening or not happening, then I'll let you know. I'm sort of at a crossroads here and I've got a tough decision to make.